Harrow is partially upset by any further references to Gideon dying; that's clearly on her topic No List but keeps coming up despite her ... and partially a bit distracted by the notion of dumping anyone or anything entirely into the River. She must mean the entire Mithraeum, but—
You don't care, says a distant voice that may or may not be inside her head. She doesn't care. Right.
"If I had wholly consumed you, you would not be here at all. You shouldn't be here at all. I gave you that body, I wanted you to have it." Somehow, Harrow keeps her cool, even though she's fighting tears again. She's not yelling. It's not shrill. This is fine. "It wasn't what I had wanted to do, of course, it wasn't as Sextus and I had intended, but we—ran out of time. And weren't ... given options."
Suddenly she understands Augustine, just the tiniest little bit. But only a little. She isn't blaming a third party in an attempt to make it seem like she could've fixed it if they hadn't been involved.
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Harrow is partially upset by any further references to Gideon dying; that's clearly on her topic No List but keeps coming up despite her ... and partially a bit distracted by the notion of dumping anyone or anything entirely into the River. She must mean the entire Mithraeum, but—
You don't care, says a distant voice that may or may not be inside her head. She doesn't care. Right.
"If I had wholly consumed you, you would not be here at all. You shouldn't be here at all. I gave you that body, I wanted you to have it." Somehow, Harrow keeps her cool, even though she's fighting tears again. She's not yelling. It's not shrill. This is fine. "It wasn't what I had wanted to do, of course, it wasn't as Sextus and I had intended, but we—ran out of time. And weren't ... given options."
Suddenly she understands Augustine, just the tiniest little bit. But only a little. She isn't blaming a third party in an attempt to make it seem like she could've fixed it if they hadn't been involved.